Wow! it’s been about three weeks since I’ve updated this blog.
When I first started, I promised myself that I would blog once a week and kept it up for a while but now I just can’t find the energy anymore. The good news is that I got a temp job, but that bad news is that my days are long and I’m completely drained of energy by the time I get home. It’s a good problem to have, but I need to be more disciplined about my writing.
It’s not like I don’t have things to write about, I just choose to veg out in front of the TV when I get home instead of summoning up some extra creative energy. This leads to guilt, which leads to further procrastination. I’m not going to make any promises about when my next post will be or what it will be about. I just want to get the ball roll again even if it means writing about not writing.
Thanks to all of you who are still following me 🙂
When I write about these serious topics in my blog, I think: Who am I to write about these things? I’m certainly no expert. Sure writing about career commitment phobia and being proudly childfree are within my wheel house, but why take on the big topics like journalism protection? I’m not a war correspondent. I’m not even a foreign policy expert.
When I write, I usually carry three things with me: a pen, paper, and doubt. Doubt is why I am agnostic. The only thing I’m sure of is that I’m not sure of anything. Not a great position to be in when you’re writing online. I was once told that “middle of the road doesn’t sell” and that’s why I never followed through with my plans to become a copywriter.
My primary motivation for writing isn’t to sell you anything. Hell, I don’t even care if you read this blog or not. I write because it keeps me sane. I write to figure out the world and to escape from it. I write because I’m angry, scared, sad, amused, inspired and frustrated. I write because I don’t what else to do. I write because it’s the only thing to do. I write because the truth needs to come out.
I’m not saying I don’t have a definite point of view. I think it’s clear reading this blog I’m clearly feminist and not exactly a Republican, but this is more about my exploration as a writer than it is about giving an audience a definite point of view. How many writers for online magazines and blogs do you see patently admitting that they don’t know, that they don’t have all the answers? Would anybody read that kind of article or blog post? Probably not.
So if you’re looking for a firm, authoritative writer’s voice, keep trucking. If you want to read the earnest ramblings of a perpetually clueless but (hopefully) entertaining thirty- something, you’ve come to the right blog, my friend!
I am finding my voice (gag, I know) through this blog. This is a platform for me to write about topics that I’m interested in, topics where I can take a firm stance and do so in a funny, educational way. Mostly, writing here is about keeping me anchored in a life where I’m drifting farther and farther away from the shore line.